Breakfast this morning: 2 egg whites w/ spinach, whole wheat toast, fruit & soy milk
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want these!
(Source: strawberriesandabs, via my-wishful-shrinking)
// death and disease //
today was a fucking terrible day.
this fucking suck and my hear is sad for so many reasons. I am drained and tired. Everything seems and feels so fleeting, sometimes even pointless. I do not want to succumb to this stupid darkness in this self loathing black hole but I do not know what to do. How do I overcome this all? I keep going right, keep trying? Work hard, fight? That’s all I can do.
Today was unfair. Today was miserable but who am I? I am selfish and a fucking waste. Too tired and consumed to do anything worth while. Move the fuck on, grow the fuck up.
// You’re a fucking coward.//
And you make everyone around you fucking miserable. Just fucking leave already. With the shitty attitude that you have you are going to sink yourself anyway. You suck all of the energy and life from every room that you are in. You spew hatred and disgust but deep I know that you KNOW it is a reflection of the shitty job you did. All you’ve ever fucking done is bring everyone else down. You are fucking horrible and miserable. You fail to see all the fucking beauty around you, all the fucking love. You are lonely because you push EVERY SINGLE PERSON AYWAY!! We were not born to dislike you… you made us this way. We were not born to distrust and run away from you. YOU did this. You made all of this. You’re life is empty and you are unhappy because of you. YOU FUCKING MORON!! You’re so blind and digging a deep, dark, lonesome grave of fucking denial, sir.
I’m addicted…..
to all of the wrong fucking things.
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Chocolate Dipped Peanut Butter Stuffed Bananas! (tutorial)
OH.MY.GOSH.
Making these tomorrow for sure.
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—It is rather confusing, the way that I feel. I cannot seem to figure myself out. My feelings are mixed up and confused. My heart always aches but I cannot tell why or for who. So yet again I leave a wake of damaged emotions behind me, I leave others feeling bitter and angry. I’ve never been good enough for anyone that I love. I will never be. These feelings are overwhelming and painful. Im tired of them. I want to figure it all out and KNOW that I am making the right choices. Know that I am exactly where I need to be, with exactly the right person. Do we ever know that though? I used to think so, I used to live for love. Know I doubt it. I do not think that it is real. Escape all you want. Try to tell yourself that you can find a better place, try to leave all of it behind. You can’t. I’ve been trying for so long now. I don’t even know where I want to go anymore. I don’t know who I am and I feel like I will search forever. I fucking hate it all, and I am so tired of feeling this way. You fucked me up just as baldy as I did you and don’t ever think otherwise. But you do. I know you live your life thinking your are without guilt, without blame. It is your fault I became so fucking addicted to love. I am nothing now. My passion has drained away. I do none of the things I used to. I feel used up, empty, and worthless. At the same time though, there seems to be enough room left for anger and confusion. I just want to go back to a time when I didn’t care, I was able to block it all out and be happy. I miss that. I guess I wouldn’t give you back because I learned so much from what we had and what it was but I do wish all of these feelings would fade. Get the fuck out! How have I not let the fuck go after all this time?! GET OUT!!
so tired
If it doesn’t end now then when will it? Focus, discipline, and health are in order.
